There is nothing wrong with God. God has not abandoned you, and is not out to get you, and does not favor anyone over you. The Creator created you, and instilled in you a purpose, and wishes nothing but for you to fulfill your purpose.
This means that if there is a problem, it is on your end. If you are turning on the lamp, but no light is coming on, does that mean that something is wrong with electricity? No, electricity is fine, but you need a new light bulb, or perhaps there is a wiring problem. Were things okay on your end, the light would just come on when you turned the switch. It is the same with God. We pray, or we expect certain things from God, and we don’t get what we want, so we say “God doesn’t love me” and we ask “What did I do to deserve this?”. God is just like electricity, the Great Power is always there, so the fact is that there is something wrong with your wiring, or you need a new light bulb.
Of course our minds will go to any lengths to keep the focus off of themselves. “I did this and I did that, what else do you want me to do?” Well, God will come to you as much as He can. As a matter of fact, if you aren’t getting what you want in life, it is YOU that is blocking God out of your life. So maybe you haven’t looked at yourself hard enough? Maybe you aren’t being completely honest? Maybe there are things that you can do to improve your wiring, or maybe you can change that bulb. Healing requires prayer. Prayer will work for you if you work for prayer. God will come to you if you go to God.
My next few writings will be about self examination, and I will share with you in hopes that it will be of some help on your journey. Until then, please think about “honesty” if needed, do some journaling on the subject. Honesty is the first thing to explore.
Many blessings to you!