Excitement(From Chapter 2 of my book.)

Kyle Shiver

Kyle Shiver

What I used to think was happiness, wasn’t really happiness at all. Just like with worries and fears, excitement is centered around something that may or may not happen in the future. You can even relate excitement with resentment, because the emotions are elevated to the same intense level. In outer appearance, a resentment and excitement may look like polar opposites, and of course they are, on the outside, but if you examine them further, you will see that they are also exactly alike in many ways. A resentment is over a past event, while excitement is over a future event. Neither is right here, right now. A resentment that is heated up to a certain level, releases the same chemical in the brain that excitement does. We build these emotions up, we heat them up, we get “all worked up”, and the results inside the body are the same. The only difference is that in a resentment, a person appears angry and hostile, while in excitement, a person appears elated and happy. Instead of re-living a past event as we do when in resentment, when we are excited, we pre-live a future event.
It took me the longest time to really understand that excitement was not good for me. Excitement was the closest thing to happiness that I had ever experienced, and it was all I knew about happiness. I could easily understand that resentment was not good for me, and it was really pleasant as I released worries and fears, but excitement was hard to let go of.
It is said that pain is our greatest motivator, and I can admit that pain is the reason I was able to let go of excitement. I would play scenarios in my mind, in which I was king. I had won, I had all the riches, and all was well. As a life long musician, of course many times I would see myself as becoming famous like the Beatle’s or Elvis. I was always on top. With excitement, I would have this idea that there was a place I could get to, something that I could achieve, and then everything would be okay. I would be happy. It was as if I would have none of the troubles or pains of life. And they lived “happily ever after”. It was this imaginary scene that I created over and over again, got excited about over and over again, and then became seriously depressed about over and over again.
You see, it is also true that “what goes up, must come down”. When I would get excited and worked up over something, it was only a short time later when I would crash. A busy mind gets caught up in the cycle of emotions and can’t get out. If it is depressed, it must find something to get excited about. If it is excited, it becomes worried. OSHO, who is an author I read a lot, points out in his book —- “Emotions, E-motion, emotions are motion.”
All you have to do is observe yourself for a few days, and watch your emotions. They will move back and forth, and sometimes seemingly for no reason. The more I came to understand this, and see this in myself, the more I needed to know “What else is there???” I have learned that the answer to that question is: REALITY.

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Kandis says:

This is really good. I can see that I am an easy to excite/ sort of animated person. Not so much anymore. I’ve been thinking that I’m just becoming boring or older, but actually I’m becoming calmer by quieting myself more. I guess I really am an adrenaline junkie. No more, I’m sticking with, steady as she goes. Right in the middle. Someone asked on Facebook what was one thing everyone wished to accomplish in this new year and my answer was “inner peace”. I think I’m finally on my way. Thanks for posting all these things, they actually keep me on track. And remind me to meditate 🙂

kyle says:

Yes you are on your way! You are already there!

Sandi Elizabeth James says:

Vipassana meditation has helped me greatly with not craving or avoiding. Everything passes, everything is temporary.

kyle says:

Meditation is so helpful for everything. Life in general is much better when I meditate. And yes, I always remember that “This too shall pass”.