“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Marianne Williamson
I made a lot of plans for this year.
There were goals and intentions with my Spirit Ministries, goals and intentions with school, also with vacation and retreat time.
It didn’t seem real or possible. There were too many questions and too many things that needed to go just right.
But I wrote it all down on the calendar and affirmed, “It already is!”
My regular readers know that Heather and I lost a very dear friend at the first of the year. It was sudden and unexpected.
Then we got stiffed in a major way by a contractor.
Two of our trees got struck by lightning and we had to pay to have them taken down.
Then another one got struck and it is coming down this week.
In July suddenly out of nowhere I was struck with the worst panic attack I’ve ever had, which left me in shambles. July and August was spent pretty much hanging on for dear life as I went in and out of anxiety attacks and truthfully, it was the people that I surround myself with that brought me through all that.
I had to be carried.
And even while having to be carried I never gave up. “I know this is for my Highest Good.” “I know that all things in the Universe are in Divine Order.” “I know the Universe wouldn’t hurt me.”
Through all of this, Tybee Spirit has met weekly since the first week of February.
The right person appeared and the book I’d been working on got edited, and is finished and I will be selling them next week.
My job as Music Director at Unity of Savannah has gone tremendously well.
The goal for school was to take 8 classes this year, and I am going to end up with 9.
My relationships with people around me have deepened to levels I’ve never known before.
I’ve had to make some changes in my life, and that is going well. The panic and anxiety has subsided for the most part.
And yesterday I found out that the last big trip I’d planned is a “go.”
During my tough time, while sitting with my Spiritual Advisor one day, he said to me, “Well, they say that pain is the touchstone of all growth, so you must be growing!”
“I must be growing a lot then!” I replied.
Over the past few weeks as I’ve been feeling better, this quote from Marianne Williamson just keep coming up in my mind.
And I have discovered on a very deep level how true this quote is.
But I will continue being the best me I can be. Fear and anxiety or no, I am walking forward into my Power.
I share these things with you because the most important thing for me is to be authentic. Nobody wants to hear someone rattling off, “You must do this and you must do that.” I am sharing my actual life experience of practicing Spiritual Principals in my life, so that you will be able to see and watch it as it happens.
Jesus told us, “I am my Father are One.” Then he said, “You will do even greater things than I.”
There is nothing in anybody that isn’t in you.
Bear witness to this because as this years goals and intentions have come into manifestation in my life, the goals and intentions for next year have begun to come into light.
And they are way bigger than this years.
And they will all come into manifestation too.
And so it is.