Picasso went through many “periods” where he would paint in different styles, and near the end of his life, he was quoted as saying, “It took me four years to paint like Raphael, but a lifetime to learn to paint like a child.” Though I enjoy much of his work, my favorite “period” came after he learned to “paint like a child” towards the end of his life.
Miles Davis had arguably the biggest thing to ever exist in the world of jazz with his famous quartet in the 60’s. Then virtually over night, he hired lots of other musicians, and then record a record called “In A Silent Way”, and soon after came “Bitch’s Brew”. This music was worlds apart from what Miles was famous for, and he didn’t care one bit. A journalist came up to him once and said, “I am a big fan and have been following you for years, but I don’t get this new music you are playing.” Miles quickly responded, “Should I wait on you?”
You may not know this, but I am a John Coltrane fanatic. If you listen to his records from the early days through the end of his life, you will hear his progression, you will hear him change. Towards the end of his life, his records sound to the casual listener as if the musicians are just randomly squawking and honking and screeching. If you have listened to him though, if you have followed him through his career, you know that each squawk, each honk, each screech, is meticulously and precisely performed just exactly the way it is. One of the first Coltrane records I bought was called, “Live in Seattle”, and I returned it. However, I didn’t really return it, I exchanged it for his first cd. I had to listen to them all in order. When I got back to “Live in Seattle” it became one of my favorites.
What I’m getting at here, is that it is okay to be you. You are right. It is okay to change up. It is okay to want to go deeper, move forward, try a new style or a new sound. If you are done with what you are doing, it is okay to be done with it. It is better to be done with it than to just keep on doing it. Do something new and fresh.
The people we admire the most were people who were not afraid of change. They were people who were true to themselves. They were people who were not afraid to try something new. They were people who were not intimidated by money, or not manipulated and held back by other people. This in essence, is what is so great about my hero’s. They were all perfectly themselves.
So that is what I attempt to do. I used to travel the country and play singer-songwriter clubs like the Bluebird Cafe in Nashville, and Eddie’s Attic in Atlanta, and the Living Room in NYC. I have recorded instrumental guitar cd’s too. Then I grew in to playing cover gigs and found myself in a country/bluegrass band, which led to being in a more traditional bluegrass band. That all transpired in to an electric blues/classic rock trio, and now who know’s what it will be next. I have also taken it upon myself to study music therapy and healing, sound tones and frequencies, and I find all that fascinating.
As a matter of fact, studying sound healing got me interested in getting my degree online degree in Spiritual Healing, which I have done. I write this blog, I have clients too who come to me for counsel or healing. Of course, there is this blog that I maintain, and the book I’m writing.
I also paint sometimes and have decided that this medium is “just for me”. Sometimes I play music to entertain people that I wouldn’t necessarily play unless someone asked. With art I won’t do that. It is my thing. People buy my art all the time.
No, I don’t really feel the same way every day. Sometimes I go back and forth about things. Sometimes I will forget to eat, and then get really grumpy. Sometimes I find myself holding on to things, simply because there isn’t anything else to grab ahold of. Sometimes I get down on myself, but I surround myself with positive people. I am busy doing what I want to do even if I am sometimes intimidated.
I have no idea what I’m going to paint next. I have no idea what kind of music or sound I’m going to be in to next. I have been invited to speak at two church’s in June, and what will I say? I don’t know yet.
But I’m hanging around to see.